I am going insane. If I wasn’t already insane, I’m at least a few steps closer.
This Camp NaNoWriMo book is going to be the death of me! Ha! Funny that I’m writing a book about a person in a hospital and I’m claiming that it’s gonna kill me. Is that irony? Or just coincidence? Probably the latter. I think irony would be if I actually did die. And that would suck.
Okay, linguistic stuff aside, I’m really having a hell of a time with this thing! I just can’t find my motivation to go on with it, to keep plugging away. I mean, I’m motivated, but the words don’t wanna flow as nicely or as easily as usual. And it’s frustrating me to no end.
But I think that I’ve figured out why it is that I’m struggling so hard.
In my area, when November rolls around and we all sit down to do the usual NaNoWriMo session, there are all sorts of wonderful plans and events made by our intrepid MLs, Xanateria and Naiya. We go have food and fun and hang out together and support each other and we do word wars and earn prizes and stuff. Plus, there’s an online chat room for just us in Calgary. Plus, there’s the NaNoWriMo forums open too.
There’s just so much support!!
I find that Camp NaNo, while it’s still technically in it’s infancy, lacks that support. And it’s not because of anything, aside from the fact that it’s only the second year that they’ve run a Camp session.
And this isn’t to say that there are literally no supports. One of the girls in Calgary has chosen to take on the responsibility of running a weekly meet-up. Unfortunately for me, this meet-up is on the other side of the city, in a restaurant. I don’t like to sit in restaurants and not order anything, even if there’s a group of people eating. Especially then. As it is, I can’t afford to drive across the city every week and I certainly can’t afford to eat out (because it wouldn’t just be me, the boy-thing would be joining me.) And, as much as I love the group, I have a few issues I need to work out on a personal level, with some of the members of the group.
(I wonder if the other parties involved realize that I have a few issues with them?)
And the internet chat room for just us Calgary wrimos is still open, but I find that it’s a lot more distracting than helpful. My iPhone is distracting enough! I have games and twitter on that thing, I don’t need a chat room too.
But on the other hand, maybe I DO need that chat room? Maybe I DO need that little push and that support to complete my 50,000 word goal by the end of the month?
I’m going to finish this novel. That isn’t the question and it’s not up for debate.
The question is am I gonna make the 50,000 word goal by month-end?
I think that regardless of if you THINK you need it, having the supports of other people working towards the same goal as you and being able to talk it out and get the cheers and tears from your friends and peers, it really does make a big difference.
Would I change my experience this month? No. Do I think I miss the meet-ups and stuff that we have in November? Yes. But do I need that support all the time? In some ways, definitely. And I sincerely recommend building a bit of a circle of people who will support you in all of your writing endeavors because it does help.
And if you want it, email me or find me on twitter. I’ll support you while you write!
Take her up on her inivitation!
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